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In Spring

Published May 19, 2015 by April Fox

In the spring,

when everything began to grow,

we sat in a field of green and yellow

spinning dreams about the future.

Yours was set in stone, and I was there

Mine was outer space and I was waving at you

far below, a thousand miles away.

In the spring,

when everything began to grow,

I counted backward days and threw up

all of my childhood

My future set in stone and yours a quickly scribbled postscript

to a tale you couldn’t write.

In the spring,

when everything began to grow,

I watched you die

counted lines etched in your jaundiced skin

and breathed the scent of giving up

with every word you spoke

I held our son and said good-bye,

your future set in stone, a gift

given to yourself.

In the spring,

when everything began to grow,

I sat in a field of green and yellow,

spinning dreams of the future

drinking coffee from a plastic cup

counting birdsongs, making pictures from the clouds

grateful, every second

for everything you left to me.

spring

Spring

Published April 15, 2015 by April Fox

If the fear doesn’t get me

the winter will,

freeze me out of myself until I crack

and drown below the surface

Each turn of the page pulls me closer

A spiral drawn in shades

of black and grey 

So for now I’ll sit and watch

the rain,

watch the world come back

to green

one tiny life

at a time

Stand under the apple tree,

bees spinning frantic around my head

tripping hard from one branch to the next,

giving praise to each fragile blossom,

their creators

marking time with heartbeats

that will burn them out

before they hit the ground. 

When the sun comes back I will

burn her in to me,

scorch my skin with the slowing-down

of every second

I can hold. 

  

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